P.S.

We aren't dating. We have no change in our Facebook relationship status. When we work together, I don't spend my time trying to get your attention... because I am work and you are not the center of my attention.

I made the mistake of having a weird hook up situation with a co-worker which has been similar to being in a relationship only we aren't in one. It's fucked.

Today at work I am busy and turn around and see this co-worker staring at my ass. He stares me up and down, making it very obvious what he's doing. I give him a weird look as if to say, "Wtf???"

These are the texts I got to my phone during my shift:

11:29am: I was checking you out you know..? im done tryin to flirt with you..you gave me the same look you gave me from day 1.
11:31am: i take back looking you up and down. sorry.
11:46am: now i feel bad..


He sure told me. How could I be so ungreatful to him "looking me up and down." Dammit, why do I continue to have this thing called "self-respect." WHY WON'T YOU LOVE ME.

Jeepers Creepers

I have no luck with men.

My Uncle is dating a woman who has kids in their late twenties. I'm in my early twenties. At Thanksgiving I met her son who sat in the livingroom watching football. Didn't talk to anyone and left without saying anything. I didn't think anything of him. I come home and he has friend requested me on Facebook and got my number from my Uncle. He has a girlfriend. That message is from this guy.

He won't stop texting me.

He wants to hang out.

He grosses me out.

I had to ask him to leave me alone.

*puke.in.my.mouth.

The Liz Lemon Syndrome

"You are stunning... but you were stunninger with your long hair." A compliment.
Now if only my hair would grow back so I might win back the approval of boys. Do you know how many boys in my life have made similar comments?

1. "You look good, but why did you ruin something good?"

2. "You looked better with long hair."

3. "Did you cut your hair because you knew I liked your long hair?"
Because that's what women do, right? We destroy the physical appearances you love as a form of vengeance/punishment. Take that for never showing up on that date/calling/texting me back, but expecting me not to "date" anyone else! *snip, snip*

I don't need you to make me feel good about myself. I love wearing my hair short, and I shouldn't have to justify what makes me feel good about myself.

On a similar note...The other day I had coffee with a guy I've known for years. After a really great discussion he tells me, "This is why I could never date you-you scare me."

Why do I scare you? lolzzz: "you intimidate me" ...oh
"you're very intelligent and independent, and beautiful too." ...is that so?

If only I could go one way, ya know? Why do I make this simple life so complicated for the other gender? If I were just beautiful, boys would like me because I wouldn't make them feel stupid. If I were just intelligent, I would be ignored by boys and enjoy a solitary life with my cats. But smart AND beautiful? Whoa, whoa, whoa. What am I doing? WHAT AM I DOING?


I just want to be stunninger.

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